SebLonelyLand

Memories~~~....

2006-03-09T17:07:00.000-08:00

jus got back from joggin.. passby my formal pri sch while joggin from the park back home.. alot of memories flash out from the deep internal of my mind.. the pri sch which i study turn into CHIJ primary.. when i pass by there those things which i use to play n slack around was still there but all turn old le.. the canteen which we use to play table tennis.. the basketball court which i cal it multi purpose court which i use to play hockey, basketball, soccer, catchin and etc.. look at the frame of tat basketball court... last time seems so tall which i could hardly reach now to mi it so tiny mini le.. the tuck shop back door pathway was the place we play pepsi cola 123.. the plach we use to conduct fight.. the place which i use to slack aroung... i walk around the fence... i saw the pathway behind the classroom which i we use to play badminton... jus a few step away its the bookshop when i spent so much pocket money on those country eraser.. haha... the garden which we do gardenin.. instead we spray water at one another... buy fish put into the pond, buy bird put into the cage... haha.. those was so real when i think of it.. it seem like it jus happen yesterdae... the side gate, main gate and staircase which i use to do my Prefect duties... the assembly area which i use to play baseball... the 2 big tress which use to be right beside the assemble area was where we play marbles n where i train my shot put... the road infront the assembly area was where we train hurdles... n most of us donate our blood over there.. haha.. all those r onli left wif memories... hai... i think i glow older n older le.. hurhur.. now my primary sch was a new buliding... doesnt haf ani memories... so near yet so far... i sit under my void deck lookin at the kids lining up goin back to class... so fun. haha... saw one of my pri 5 teacher.. hurhur... nv change... i think he should b 36 le ba... join my pri sch for around 10 years le ba... hurhur.....

Halow... i am Back!!!~

2006-02-25T00:46:00.000-08:00

Long time nv update my blog le... since b4 christmas ba... whahahaha... veri veri lazy + busy... jus finish project n handin on time... now come to exam le... need to study until like hell le.. i haf keep studyin since the start of this week... but it jus seems not much things goin in... hurhur... tonite goin to kbox to celebrate my pals birthdae... 2 at a time.. coz they r twins... whahahaha... after tat maybe goin to chalet... hai... still not sure whether goin to chalet anot... coz scare tat i can't finish studyin...

SUPER FOUR...

my bike nv gif mi ani problem... until now still veri smooth... veri good... whahaha... i run my top speed 2 times... clear meter... but doesnt seems scary or fast... si le... i think i need some thing faster... HAYABUSA... haha... maybe c how loh... if affortable maybe i would change within this year or next year ba... my bike is the best thing which i haf le.. GOD pls do not take away from mi... coz i haf no more things le... so sad...

Christmas comin..

2005-12-12T19:43:00.000-08:00

Long time nv come in n update my blog le... jus now sharon jus call mi... she gif birth le... maybe tml gonna meet her n c her baby...

christmas comin le... time to shop again.. haha..

kawasaki kips...

2005-11-25T18:40:00.000-08:00

today has been a long dae for mi... i haf waited this dae to come for so long.. i bought a new bike... SUPER4... so sad to leave my bike... veri she bu de.. my bike haf accompany mi for so long le... she dun gif mi alot of problem... n gif mi the power which i wan... so sad tat she is leavin n findin her new owner... FT 260 P a blue kawa has gone... n a new super 4 is comin out... i felt sad n nervous... sad to leave... nervous to get the new bike... hope my new bike can gif mi the power i wan... FZ 8607 P a blue super4 is comin tml... wif a micron pipe... sound solid... haben try it b4... later will go n take pic wif my digi cam n post it here.. hope tat it would b a memory for mi... hai... the happiness n pain which has given by her was left inside my brain... so sad to leave.. but no choice... i am not a good owner.. hope tat my bike will find a new n good rider...

SebLonelyLand...

2005-11-16T15:18:00.000-08:00

haha... guess y i name my blog under this... yea... i think most of the ppl hu is readin my blog would guess tat i am lonely ba... hai... actually this is created becoz i wan to b lonely... try to write something which cant b spoken out by mi... a world which i am alone n sae watever which i wan... this past few mth i had actually become a balloon... keep all those unwanted stuff in mi... i dun like to share my feelins... i am basically a weird person... even mi moiself duno wat i wan... can name it... maybe i use to b lonely ba... sometimes really hope tat there would b someone hu can understand mi n show care bout mi.. haha... DREAMIN... keke... hai... really duno wat to do after havin half of my life studyin... maybe lonely is a name given by mi ba... i dun noe how to speak well... duno how to entertain others... but i try... after all those years of tryin... haha... i get some names... a joker... a lamer... a crappers... haha... this is wat i got... no one noe wat i actually wans... but jus hope to stay this way... onli this way i can c all those happi faces which appear on my friends... need to say thanx to alot of ppl when i am down... thanx u so much... to all those hu haf hurt mi treated mi badly... thanx too... it u hu make mi stand up n get hold of myself... learn alot of things... wat i learn in u i will remember it well n take it as a lesson... i will try not to step into those traps again... i learn n c too much things becoz of u... standin up again is wat i wanted to do... i was an active person last time... but now... i haf c another part of mi... a different character.. which i haf try to hide it... haha... somehow i really think of havin a long break after all those years... hope to rest more... keke... it has been so long which i can hardly get to slp more than 7 hr... haha... hardly get to slp at nite... all those things which happen is becoz tat i haf nv guard myself well... i haf nv take kare of myself well enough... the greatest mistake i haf made...

JUsT LiKe HeaVeN...

2005-11-15T05:21:00.000-08:00

jus came back from malaysia... b4 tat i went to watch movie wif irvin, adam n their gf... went to watch jus like heaven... the show was veri nice... so gan dong... no one should miss this show as it is as good as endless luv... the luv story which bond to the couple was a nice one... althought i think this movie is a simple one coz i can guess the next step wat the show was goin to b like... but it still a great show... veri touchin... wao... hope tat more movie can b found n act this way... hope tat there will really b such things...

Desmond...

haha... ah xiao found his luv one le... keke... got gf le... i think he would treat this one better than the one b4... wish him good luck in his relationship... i think it will b good ba...

LUV LiFe...

today another person ask mi to find a gf again... hai... so sian... really dun feel like havin relationship after the pain which i haf suffer... jus stay alone can le... dun wish to b hurt by another person again... the feelin sux... i hate it... jus stay this way till i out of army ba... i think this would b the best ba...

Shootin stars..

2005-11-08T06:43:00.000-08:00

went to malaysia wif adam n travis... adam went home after tat... mi n travis went to lay park at sem park... haha... nua down there... we r both moody guys which sharin the same interest look at the sky... haha... saw shooting stars again... within 2 hr... we saw 4 shootin stars... damn nice... hai... i must go there more offen le... those shootin stars today r quite short de... onli got one damn long last about 1 sec... damn nice... the shootin stars today r without those fire tails de... but also veri nice...

SChOoL LiFe Begin..

2005-11-07T04:06:00.000-08:00

tml sch start le... today nua whole dae... abit sian... coz holidae finish le... need to return back to the stressful life again... haiz... but no choice... had to study... haben buy ani books yet... keke... tml go sch confirm is nua whole dae de... whahaha... hai... no choice... cant get back to slp early... hai... use to nite life le... everydae mornin then slp... now i cant slp... duno how sia... haha... jus now went to loyang temple to pray.. jus reach home... hai... try to slp ba... bo pianz...

HoLidae endin soon...

2005-10-31T15:50:00.000-08:00

todyae is the start of our last week holidae le... next week gotta go back sch n study le... 2nd year 2nd sem start... sian.... this few dae keep on wrkin... from 8.30am wrk to 12pm... this is the most power de.. haha... wrk till veri tired... reach home slp le... then 5am plus wake up saw 12 miss call from irvin... keke... to bad... i really too tired le... from after eat then all the way to the next dae... damn hungry!!! but slpin come first... whahaha... my head felt like goin to burst le... veri nua... so slp onli!!!! whahaha.... yesterdae was the last dae for starhub road show at shaw hse... haha... this two dae r so tirin... cannot tahan... reach home Straight away slp le...

saw a ger at this starhub road show... i manage to found out her name... she call hui min... she is not veri beautifull... but she got x factor which ppl will tense to look at her twice... whahaha... there is alittle bit of joke which happen between mi n her... haha... so funneee....

NuAZzzz...

2005-10-24T15:28:00.000-07:00

today whole dae at home do nth... 3 plus woke up n keep on nuain n listenin to songs... my sis go to thailand... so mi alone at home... so sian... meet travis n rong xian go amk kbox find dalvin... go there listenin to songs again... heard ppl callin my name 2 times then turn around saw nobody... after tat receive a msg for weishan.. haha.. they saw mi n they r at kpool.. so i jio han lin to play billiard.. i win him 20++ point n left the blue ball... i one que clear... whaha... so lucky... then he go punch... then wen lin also jio him play.. wen lin also win... we r lucky... then nua at K1 again...( one of the room in kbox ) hai... really so sian... nth to do sia... then it was about 3 plus le... kbox close... then james, wei han, adam and xian wei come n find us... after eatin we go nua at sembawang park... lie down there starin at the sky listen to songs... mi n travis saw shootin star.. haha... damn nice. make a stupid wish n i noe tat it wont fullfill de... haha... i am damn stupid.. hai....

MoViE..

2005-10-19T05:45:00.000-07:00

today slack at home for the whole dae... so nua... off from wrk then nua whole dae until evening time... went to catch a movie wif wei han, james, wenlin, n a ger... we watch "The 40 Year Old Virgin" damn funneee... keke... come out of the cinema my stomach was like crampin... whahaha... the movie was a great one... damn funee.. after tat we went to eat at bugis n went to golden mount to play billiard.. play number but nv play money de... we r jus practisin onli... keke..

SiAN...

this few daes felt so sian.. more n more lonely le... everyone haf their own partner le... i still alone by myself... maybe is jus tat i dun dare to pick up another relationship le ba... i am scare.. reject some of them coz i noe i cant bring them laughter n happiness ba... i am scare of gers le... dun understand y... haiz... most of my pals told mi y dun wan to sound my gers pals for a relationship? hai.. i haf no courage... i am scare... i felt lonely.. i noe i am able to stand up de... but jus duno when... maybe somedae somehow i will meet her??? haha... but not this time of my life.. i plan to serve ns first b4 relationship thing strike on mi... but when i told them... they told mi tat i should jus let it b... accept it... things r hard to predict... i noe it... i understand.... but i jus cant et them enter my life... i duno y... <<>> this sound truth.... but wat i wan now is jus someone hu can treat mi well... n i can feel the comfort which they can gif mi... i dun ask for more... jus treat mi well can le... but findin someone hu can really treat mi well is real hard... haha... haiz...

RaInin...

2005-10-17T03:22:00.000-07:00

today whole dae keep on rainin ler... sian... wrk at 11 reach at 12 plus... stuck at home cannot go wrk... coz rainin then cannot ride bike.. ask my father drive mi go wrk... hai... nv ride bike... at wrk place feel like slpin... damn cold... wooo~~~.... after wrk plan to take bus home then walk to bus stop rx call... he ask mi go play billiard... go up to find them n play awhile... about 1 hr onli... damn cheap... onli 2.2 nia... share punch... then walk to the nearest bus stop to take bus home... i onli got 60 cents coin in my pocket... n the others all 2, 10 n 50 dollar notes.... then wait for bus... bus reach aboard the bus... long time nv take bus le then dunno wat price... gif bus uncle 60 cent n show my bus pass... ezlink duno got money anot then nv try... bus uncle tell mi in a veri rude way "90 cent" so damn du lan... exchange coin wif an old malay auntie... lucky she got 2 dollar coins... change wif her and gif uncle 30cent more... tmd... althought it nth but the feelin damn pai sei... like no money to take bus like tat... beggin for money... shit... so suay.. nv check.. all notes.. lan lan... hai...

JB....

jus went jb wif irvin... after tat sit down tok cock awhile... hai... he got his new paint job done... white n gold... damn nice... tat the colour which i wanted to spray last time... but i change le... hehe... hai... gonna slp le... damn tired...

Final TP FoR 2A...

2005-10-11T00:30:00.000-07:00

haha... yesterdae nv slp properly... when for 2A tp today.. meet ah xiang at 6.30 n got to 628 market eat breakfast... after tat we when to TP together.. wait quite a long time for our turn to go on test... i was number 70 n he was number 72.. number 71 nv cum... whahaha... so on the whole test road we all stick together n ride.. after the test we waited to get our result... it was different from last time le... we seat in the cold room n this time i wasnt tat kan jiong le... during 2B everyone seems so nervous... but tis time i am not le... i sat tat n jus wanted to slp... keep on disturbin ah xiang. whahaha... then when the tester came into our room to call those number... we all jus pray hard tat they wont call our number onli.. after a while all number haf been called... then those hu left in the room was passes... mi n ah xiang both pass. he got 8 point n i got 6 point for my tp... one deduction on fail to overtake it cause 2 point n the other one is nv check blind spot 4 point.. at least a pass can le la... haha... can concentrate on wrkin le... 1 mth later should b buyin my super 4 le... hope can come out as fast as possible... keke...

LiFe...

2005-10-09T15:39:00.000-07:00

damn boring... now is sch holidae... mi everytime jus wrk n go out then cum home slp... ah bo watch vcd.. damn sian.. jus got back home... jus now meet shuling go chit chat... n b4 tat i was nua n slpin at home whole day...

wat is life... life is a things which no one can predict wat will happen next... u need to continue walkin to find wat u need n wat u wan... if somedae tat someone hu dun wan to walks wif u... dun turn back. keep on goin... u will find something unexpected be it good or bad... jus keep goin...

a pal told mi when u r young u r a monkey... coz we always play afool n no nid to care so much about money...
when u r a adult u r a cow... coz we haf to earn a live n due to wrk...
when we r old we will b a dog n stay at home to look after our grandson le... whahaha... so truth...

do wat u can do.. try to do the best u can in everything... u can do it if u wan... belive in urself... trust urself... coz to mi... there is no more hu i can trust le... i onli can trust myself... i haf been hurt deeply... i haben forget but i jus throw it behind my brain n try not to think of it... pals r hard to find... to find someone hu willin to b ur true friend is hard to find... if u wans to b one... u must took up the courage n tell him or her wat he n she should do... protect them... dun push them down slop... they will fall... if u wans to b one can msg mi in my msn... whaha... tell mi tat... sebestial_cheong@hotmail.com if u thing u can change mi.. try it...

i luv hu u r... n not the one hu u r now... but it ok for mi le... coz u doesn belong to mi animore... jus hope tat u will stay happi to b there n not here... i noe u r happi... coz i am not the cup of tea for u... thanx... i haf learn how to b strong..

SheNG HUa....

2005-10-01T04:17:00.000-07:00

woo... yesterdae watch "the myth"... damn nice... i luv the story.. woo... damn power... the luv story which they create which make mi lookin forward to... argh... althought it hard to find tis kind of luv... but there is... When u belive in it... the part which "mong yi" beheaded he was damn strong... until the last breath of his life he nv gif up... he took something to support him in-order to stay upright... the courage n the strength tat i need to learn from him... "li fei" was the one which make mi belive tat there is everlastin luv which still lies in this world... although it sheng hua but i choose to belive... damn touchin... she can wait so mani years yet to wait for "mong yi"... but the last part which i felt sad is tat they still cant b together.. if i am chen long i will choose to take the pills n life together wif li fei... i will stay there wif her even if i die... n till the last breath of our life... so touchin... i luv it... this is the first time i am interested in a korean ger... b4 tat i dun really like their features... but this ger hu act in this show makes mi changes a mind set for korean ger... she was damn beautiful... so "nu ren wei"... so swt... if there is someone which look like her n haf the attidute like her which acts in this show... i think she will b the one le... JJ U R DREAMIN... there is no such person which was like this in this world... but jus hope to find someone like tat... if i can... after NS i really hope to get married... coz i am old enough le... no time le... if my wife or gf is like this i will definitly let them b the best n enjoy the best out of all... i dun really noe when n how come i become so emotional... when i watch this show i really feel tat i am part of it... n can feel the love which she gif... n i can feel tat how sad was she when mong yi die.. waited so long jus for a promise n in the end the person was no longer there le... is jus as good as an empty promise... jus becoz for she belive n she can live so long jus to wait for her dream to come truth n wait for him to fullfill her dream... so swt...

TP.....

2005-09-28T15:47:00.000-07:00

this is wat i draw

ah Xiao, ah boon, mi, rx

mi n rong xian

jus got back from SSDC.. so happi... i pass my pract 3 today... n i jus book my Tp... it was on the 11 of oct... if i pass tat means i use less then a mth to clear my 2A. coz i take my first pract on 22 of sept... wahahaha... i got deduct point on 2 blindspot which i dun even noe i need to check... n b4 tat i ask one of the instrutor whether at this two place need to check anot.. he still told mi no need.. so shit... but after tat ler... tmd... i tio bcoz of this two blindspot... ah bo is zero pointer liao... hai...

yesterdae....

went downstair wif shu xian to help jiaying to draw her olevel stuff... i draw a merlion wif shadin on it... after tat when to meet desmond rx n ah boon... when to sembawang park to relax... then follow by meetin wei han, james, n 2nd ah boon... whahaha... then la kopi n sua tiu...

pract 3...

2005-09-27T16:43:00.000-07:00

yesterdae one dae clear two pract... lucky no pract 3 ah bo i chong dong confirm go take de...
whhahaha.... so lucky... 1245 book a pract 1 then pass... 440 book pract 2 n pass again... for pract one 8 ppl go 3 survive... pract 2 6 ppl go... all survive too.. haha... so suang... wed i goin for pract 3... hope can survive too... yesh la... pls... god help mi... i wanna clear it fast... after pract 3 i can go for my tp le...

SSDC!!!~~~

2005-09-26T15:20:00.000-07:00

yesterdae was damn tired... slp at 9 plus then today mornin wake up n went for 1245 2A practical lesson... while havin practical lesson i kanna one complain then instrutor come n tell mi to behave while ridin... i also duno wat i did... i snook.. then i ask him wat happen... he sae the japanese guy which is the chief instrutor sae i ride veri fast n cornerin around the circult... i was damn blur... since when did i play corner... hai... he sae i wif a guy play corner... corner together... i snook again... i told them tat i didn... coz i also dun noe the bike while enough how did i dare to corner usin super... i did speed in the circult which the speed limit in the circult was onli 40 i reach to 60 plus 70... but everyone did tat wat. hai... so suay... let the jap guy spot... lan lan... but in the end i pass my practical... after tat i book a pract lesson at later on which was 440... hope can pass too... if later on pass n there is still slot for pract 3 tml i will go for it... then can go on to tp le... must pia for tp... coz it is on the 11 of oct... if ok then power le... less then one mth i pass n clear my tp... songz ar....

EnjoyMenT...

2005-09-23T18:48:00.000-07:00

Exam finish le... now must start to enjoy le... after all the hardwork.. argh!!!~ finally finish le... yesterdae go pa billiard then go malaysia... come back go pa billiard again.. play number ball... wif adam xiao di n xiaoming.. play till 7 plus the go home... nv slp... meet irvin, pearlyn, adam n guys out to sentosa "siloso beach"... nv think of gettin tann de... all of them go sun tann... mi alone stay in shade... after awhile all come back to shade... but guess wat... mi stay in shade still kanna sun burn... kao... whahaha... damn fast turn black... if i stay under the sun wif them i think i will become roasted pig le... whahaha... damn jia lat... but quite enjoy... haiz... now jus reach home... i think cannot slp again le la... 2 daes... haha... later must go to hui fen bbq... keke... tml must go wrk.. tonite must slp till song le ar... ah bo i think i cant wrk le...

exam OvEr...

2005-09-22T23:29:00.000-07:00

so happi tat exam over le... keke... shuang... can concentrate on my 2A le... hai.. today exam was a diffcult paper... i think i flank it... hai... maybe will kanna sub paper... so shit... but at least i haf id wat i can le... i really try to gif my best le... but haha... i am not those kind of ppl who can study de... look at my face... not even a single features which look like a poly student.. haha... tonite maybe goin club momo... hai... if really nth to do then bo pian loh... today exam yesterdae study finish le then got mood to play billiard... mi, adam, wen lin, rong xian n ah boon when to pa billiard.. so shiok... long time nv play le... play for fun... keke... number ball some more... long time nv play gettin more lousy le... those ppl hu wan to bao chou can come now le... i dunno how to control my strength n my point le.. facin like fuck... whahaha... damn lousy... Later goin for my 2A... slp for about 1 hr yesterdae nite... 6 wake up meet adam go study le... then prepare for 8.30 exam... mi everydae like tat... after today i will rest le... sat need to start wrk le... sianz... long time nv wrk le... duno still can anot... scare later veri tired... i haf been nite life for about a year le... even sch start mi also about 4 to 5 then slp de... now must slp early n wake up early... si le la... hope can turn back to normal... gif mi 1 week n i must finish all my pract n book my TP... yesh... this is wat i hope for...

exam comin...

2005-09-14T06:15:00.000-07:00

haf been studyin this few daes... hai... TCP/IP... so mani things to remember... study wif irvin adam yong gui... i think they r pro le... mi still dunno alot of things... jus got back home from my blk void deck... study n read like hell... rong xian pass by then come n look for mi... cit chat awhile n i study again... shu xian come down at the rite time haha... thought she was goin to slp... but she suddenly appear infront of mi... lucky i finish study le.. the tok wif her for awhile then go home le... today i jus take off my p plate... keke... haf been a rider for 1 year le... i think maybe tml go n enroll 2A le... now still 24 point... bu she de go take 2A leh... keke... but sooner or later de la... exam left last then 48 hr then start le... sian leh... need to study like mad le... hai... jus hope can do well this sem... i haf put in my effort le... but last min de... i think not so good ba... jus aim for a C ba... at least can pass can le... hope my java can score... then the others jus pass can le.. kekee..... SUPER 4... Wait for mi... i am comin... damn happi... p plate off... afternoon jus cut hair nia... length is the same la... but not so thick le... can style le... hai... feel like changin hairstyle le... everytime the same... veri sian...

FeELiNs....

2005-09-07T14:18:00.000-07:00

today i went to sch to submit my project... i feel happi when i reach sch.. coz presentation over le.. keke... i jolly well print my past year exam papers... n guess wat... i waste alot of my quota.. printer no paper... so shity... xiao ming come to sch n wait for us as we r goin to taka to watch liondance competition... i went to eat at far east... then went down straight to taka... while waitin for the competition to start, i go n find my pals which r in other troupe... my troupe got comp too... i went to find xiao di n my pals... i feel like i am wat i use to b which i was in my "olden days" haha... when the comp start... i feel like breakin out... i remember the first time i went for competition in 1998... i was onli in sec 1... then follow by all those commitiment which i made in my life of liondance... i remember tat i went in wif nth n come out wif skills which r taught by my coach... n i saw those up n down which happen in my liondance troupe... from alot of ppl.. n a not well known troupe till less n less ppl... n now international well noe troupe... WEI JIN ASSoCIAtIon, cheng san... a place where i grow up... from a member to a assistance coach... i went to alot of country for performance n competition... i luv the feelin which they gif mi... so close n yet so real... alot of things happen in this few year... or i can sae it jus happen within this past few mth... a guy from our troupe open a new troupe n drag alot of ppl over... he ask mi to help to... but i nv promise tat i will go... coz i dun wan to betray my coach... " yi ri wei shi zhong sheng wei fu" althought sometimes i dun really agree wif wat my coach do... but i still respect him as a person which jus like my father... he guide us from young to the time when we grow mature... this troupe bring mi memorise... i feel tat i cant live without them... even my coach wife told mi tat he treat us jus like his son... my "shi mu" sae this too... she sae she cant even bare to leaves us... mi too... i also cant bare to leave u guys... but really hope tat u guys will understand wat i think is importance to mi...

MarriED...

a friend call mi today n to mi tat she is goin to get married soon... next thurs ROM le... happi for her... she call mi n tok to mi on fone about 1 hr plus... she sae she look at my pic n saw alot changes in mi... keke... all GOOD COMMENTs.... we chat about alot of things... suddently she told mi tat i haf grown up le... more mature... my ways of think jus sound like a adult which is so real.. she told mi if a 25 n above ger fall in luv wif mi she wont get shock coz of my thinkin n the way i speak... hai... r my think old??? even my hair dresser told mi tat... Y... i also du understand.. maybe is tat i jus dun feel like jokin at tat moment ba... she tol mii tat she likes to tok to mi coz i am straight forward... she still told mi tat gers will fall in luv wif mi bcoz of my thinkin n the way i speak... haha... so funneee... i haf no gf n no one likes mi... i am all alone... i felt emotional... i duno how much i haf change i jus wish to settle down fast...

HurrAy...

2005-09-07T11:19:00.000-07:00

yes la... project finish le... yesterdae we will doin presentation... the dae b4 tat we will doin intergradtion for our project... dun sae le... tmd whole nite nv slp my mood is already so suk le... still got PPL SAE INTEGRATION easy... of coz is eazy... coz u r not doin anithing for tat mah... jus tok onli... we start our integration at about 7pm till 5am... n still got error... fuck... the code which they sent to use simply cant wrk at first... then we drag out those connection n do in one more time... project name haf the same name... system crash... shit... becoz of minor minor things n everything restart again... hai... but thanx to god... we did it... thanx to pearlyn hu were helping us... irvin, pearlyn, adam and mi... 4 person nv slp... doin the last things for the project... when things got it done... all of us was so happi... irvin when to slp about 15 min... adam rest about 1 hr... pearlyn nv slp... mi doin my vb codin... haha... after tat we when home bath n change into business wear for our presention later on... we reach sch about 8 plus although our groupe meet at 10... i start doin the gui background.... haha... i search for nice pic... n do a design on my GUI... i show to adam n irvin... i thik it is nice... whahaha... adam ask mi to carry on doin it for everyone... then i do loh... but guess when... when i finish wif the last GUI... my com hang n everthing gone... shit... bad mood... wat i do on the project was all gone... so shit... argh... i was goin crazy le... i feel like kilkin ppl... b4 tat ying reach.. she wish to help mi de... but she duno how to do... coz alot of step... irvin also wish to help... i taught him how to do... then i go style my hair... shit.. damn ugly... coz y hair too long le... but sharon, aini, nas n i forget hu else le... they sae my hair nice... hurhur... during the presentation everything when fine but onli a minor mistake... the teacher ask mi alot of question... hai... after the presentation as usual we went to our fotoh takin session... take pic wif my clz ppl... hurhur... after tat mi adam n irvin went home... we went our way home.. adam when to take his belly pan for his bike... i went straight home.. hurhur... i nv eat anithing n slept till the next mornin... hurhur... so song... hai... tml got java test... must go study le...

WaT To do...

2005-09-03T09:59:00.000-07:00

hai... today rot whole dae at home doin nth le... veri sian leh... nth to do then come in blog for song... whahaha... hai... 12pm slp then 5pm wake up le... call wenlin he sae he wrkin... call irvin he sae he meetin pearlyn.. call xiao di, he chu shi... i got no where to go.. adam also wrkin... wanna draw de... but abit lazy... hai... rest for a dae... when to my bike shop to pay my installment... the boss over there ask how much i bought for my helmet... whahaha... he sae i do until veri nice... haha... after tat when to DA PAO for my sis to eat... after eatin i wash the plates... so sian... onli mi n my sis at home... before she reach home i was alone at home keep on smokin as i haf nth to do... wat to do... later meetin adam to do project... we left the design part n log in part to do.. sian... project project project... hai.. finish le still need to study for my comin exam... tmd... yesterdae play billiard wif xian wei... he ask mi wat am i doin nowadaes... i told him all this n he ask mi since when i be come so hardworkin.. haha... use to nua all the way de... ppl study i slp in clz... but now... hai... wat i am doin???? studyin makes mi tired... hai... veri borin loh.... but bo pian... there is no way i can survive without the cert... tat is one of the reason which push mi to carry on wif my task... i dun wan to waste another year or another sem to retake those stupid modules... after studyin i can go army le... dun wan to waste ani more time le... i am tired of livin... no life de... if let mi stay at a place for too long i will find tat it is gettin small n small... which i feel so uncomfortable... i luv natural... look at the sky the trees... woo hoo... most powerful things is to look at the sea... enjoy the sound which produce by the wave.. so shiok... i really need a break... ARGH!!!!~~~~~

progess in project..

2005-09-03T09:12:00.000-07:00

this few dae no time to blog... coz too much project to handle... haha. finally finish part of it le... so happi... all my SQL statement n web form all wrkin le... dun need to stress le... so shuang... today jus watch the "3 ge hao ren" the story quite touchin... veri nice... huang yi xin veri chio... wahaha... hai.. but dunno her... no choice... the story was tokin about 3 person stay in a prison bcoz of different cases... then after they release their life n ways of livin... hai... this story let mi think of last time... but lucky i am those lucky ones which nv kanna caught... haha... remember a pharse which li guo huang sae... " court sent him to prison for 10 year... but the ppl in the outside world sent them to death sentence... listen le veri ke lian... the last part was so unexpected... so nice... happi endin... so good...

SiAn...

2005-08-29T12:34:00.000-07:00

hai... everyone got their super four le... all yoshimura pipes... hai... my dear dear c mi sad sad nowadaes le... hahaha... hope tat my dear dear wont gif mi problem... jus two more weeks n i gonna go my 2a le... whahaha... by then i will change a new dear dear le... although veri she bu de... but to long wif mi le... need to rest... this dear dear run veri fast... i like the power she gif mi... but no choice... hai... total got xiao ming, xiao di, adam, irvin, yg, xian wei, wei han, ah jun... etc... all super four le... when then i can buy my super four... hai... exam comin le... haben really start studyin... the dae after i get off my p plate is my exam le... so suay... hai... need to study cannot celebrate... shu ling today jio mi go eat steam boat wif them... hai... but i think it too late le... need to do project... but in the end go play billiard... my database can wrk le... yesh la... whahaha... left abit more implememtation i can rest le... whahaha... hai... still wonderin whether to get yoshimura or mircon pipes... or jus original then go mock... hai.. sian... saw shu xian n wenlin today... they also ask mi go along wif them to eat steamboat... but i am damn sian... tml my mum birthdae... my sis ask mi dun anihow run... ask mi to stay at home celebrate wif my family... jiaying art piece need to gif it to her this wed... but i haben even touch yet... i haf no time... but can reject her... coz she keep on askin n askin... i also paisei to reject her le... so sian... i luv drawin... but i got alot of stuff to do leh... hai... my bike now disfigure le... how... so sian... ani one wanna sponsor mi to spray my bike... i b he or her ah mat for one week... whahaha... hai... sian leh...

HoPe To hAf A NeW LiFe....

2005-08-24T03:08:00.000-07:00

this few daes really think throughly le... i should really gif up le... no point waitin le... hai... although she bu de... but i think this will b the best... can try to get someone hu can always care for mi le... n i can shower my care to her too... ppl xing fu jus dun disturb le... haha... stay alone... c got ppl wan mi anot... whahaha... jus now study for my vb quiz for later on... adam too tired... he fall aslp... mi alone study.. irvin pass his bike tp le... haha... 2A le leh... jus now show mi his license... XIA LAN SIA... hahaha... he still haben make up mind to choose Super 4 spect 2 or RVF... " rider veri fast huh" whahahaha... my turn also cumin le hoh... dun worry... my spect 1 wif yoshimura is cumin le... white wif baby blue wing n gold linin surround it... wahahaha... WAIT FOR MI... hahaha...

wait is wat i choose

givin up is with no choice

from the dae which u decided to leave

i noe the dae will b for mi to forget

even if the problem lies within us now

dun try to maintain wat we haf...

jus let it b.. since u dun luv mi animore...

care n concern is wat i need for u...

but tat was already the pass...

i jus hope tat tml start another person will cum..

i will forever treat her gd n tats a promise...

letin mi go is wat u wan...

i haf already forget the pass n a rebirth of mi has done...

i haf change...

i luv tml..

waitin for someone new to enter my life...

waitin for someone which i can shower my care n concern on her..

but i dun think i will start wif it...

when i haf my confident back...

u will b the one...

dun worry if i treat u bad...

if u willin to wait for mi..

when the time reaches,

i be there for u...

jus gif mi time n i will slowly pick up my confident...

i haf been hurt deeply...

i feel like a toy...

i feel like a zombie..

n now i am numb...

i haf nv think of wat happen next...

i jus hope to b wif u...

but wat this happen changes mi...

i learn a new lesson...

learn to gif n take...

dun take things simple...

thanx for bein a great teacher...

the choice is urs...

forget u is hard...

but the chances u gif mi is gd enough...

i haf done it so...

becoz u dun like mi le...

i dun wan to b yi xiang qing yuan...

how u treat mi i will jus b a pieces of mirror now...

return back to u...

no matter it gd or bad...

wat u gif mi i will return it to u...

ProJeCT StReSS aR....

2005-08-22T03:13:00.000-07:00

hai... project project project... exam exam exam... all crash... wat i need is more time... hai... si le la... haf been doin those stupid project... although it worth 10% onli as some of u think... but to mi 10 marks will help mi to clear my exam... jus hope to pia all the way... if haf chance to go into U i will... but i dun think i can... hai... today do those project until about 2 then go home... everydae also like tat... either study or do project... hai.. no life... tryin to compile everything together... but wat we got is jus information from all of us... some information is different... compile project is really hard... mi adam n irvin haf been crackin our head n brain to join it together... hai... for justification we will leave it to u all as wat u all suppose to touch on it... hope u guys can do it... all the best.. we haf join all our things tog le... onli a portion which daniel handed to us all of us agree tat it might b wrong... coz too much of subnet le... n some r repeated... hai... we r goin to check it out as soon as possible... when we do finish le we will pass it to u all... dun worry... i think should b finishin by wed ba... hope so... after tat i think can flee le... haha... relax awhile then must start on implementation le... VB... hai... i duno how to start... shit... exit n clear button i haf all done le... left the database part le... when database finish le then i will input the code then i haf finish all my job le... hai... this thursdae got VB quiz again... shit... i dun wan to haf a F for tat... need to pia for VB... all my wrk is ok... onli VB fail... shity... hai... Stress up by all those project, quiz, exam and attendents... i damn stress leh.... ARGH!!!~~~... is there someone hu can rescuse mi... i really need a break... hai... my attidute sucks nowadaes... HAI... should apologise to alot of ppl... i really need a break... shu ling n shu xian jus called... ask mi to go out... they wanna meet mi at my block downstair... hai... if onli i can forget then i can accept... haha... i feel like goin to seaside n shout out all i wan... but i am sick now... hai... havin flu n cough... after enter poly i haf been sick like free... hahha.... sian... dunno when will die... should b long la... haha... illiness all cum le... hai... touch wood...

CoMa AgAin...

2005-08-21T13:19:00.000-07:00

slp until 5 plus then wake up, as yesterdae went to adam hse to play mahjong... veri tired... reach home slp till 5 plus... about 12hr sia... long time nv slp until so shiok le... my bike more n more problem occur le... as for myself... hai... i found out tat i use to speed more n more offen le... must control le... meet adam at 7.30 to study for quiz... i overslept... hai... damn tired... i feel tat my temper has breakout le... hai... the old mi has cum back le... shit... i dun wan to b the one which always fight n quarrel le... now is good... must control... i wan peace... hai... tok to adam about the pass.. felt tat madness has conquer mi once again... my temper has rise as i was sayin my pass... although it nth compare to alot of ppl but the pain n anger was still there... hai... jus keep it in mi... hope tat it wont pop out again le... i hate to be in the pass... jus now went to malaysia... damn dulan those malaysian which keep on pesterin us... got hand n legs... y dun find a better job then wipein ppl bikes which we dun wan them to do... look at their cloth... damn dirty... touches my bike... i feel like wackin them up... scold them i also song... keep on pesterin us ask us to gif them money... WTF... told them no money le... stil keep on askin... damn fan... they tok to mi again n again to ask for money until i du lan jus ka lan them... NBCB... stupid ppl do stupid action... i wont gif them ani money de still keep on pesterin... idoitic pig... hope tat somedae they would jus leave there... more n more ppl there to beg for money... hai...

LoNeLy...

2005-08-20T04:44:00.000-07:00

Today after sch adam, xiao di and mi when to play billiard... quite nice... play loser... long time nv play loser le... so shiok... play for the whole dae... after my game i went home to slp... keke... about 7 plus slp till 9 plus... b4 slpin quarrel wif my mum for a little bit of things... bad mood... so du lan... after tat wake up.. mood wasnt gd too... then go online msn... hai... so sian... my cousin call n ask mi to wrk tml... but actually adam had already plan to play mahjong for sat le... hai.. spoil his mood... so sorry.. had to go wrk.. not enough ppl... hai... irvin ask mi to go watch movie... we go watch THE MAID... whaha... nice show... the show scare everyone in the cinema... whahaha.. got a part i was shock to c a hand suddently pop up... whahaha... when tat part finish the show was normal to mi... so nice... scary... after tat part adam who was sittin beside mi sae "thanx for bring him to c this kind of show" whahaha... adam dun worry... u r not ah shun... whahahaha... dun scare... in real life there is no ESTHER.... whahaha... in the middle of the show i turn my head to look at them... i saw pearlyn hidin herself close to irvin... irvin hand was around his nose near his eyes... xiao di also... keke... i can sae tat this is the onli show which really let mi c in this kind of mood.. abit scary.. two trumbs up.... damn nice... dun miss it everyone...

SaDZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz...

2005-08-16T11:31:00.000-07:00

hai... today actually veri happi de... wake up go sch at 1pm... hai... koon gao gao leh.. songzzz... wake up wif good mood... then when i go to my bike... goin to start my bike... WTF... my petrol tank dented... shit... then i look around for clue... c got anithing spoil anot... hai... found out tat my on off switch for my head light was gone... idoit... then i found it on the floor... so shit... first thinkin was tat shity person hu cum n disturb my bike... then i look on the dented mark... findin out wat had happen... b4 tat was my bike kanna disturb at marine parade... then follow on by this... shit... look like got ppl jealous of mi or du lan mi le... wanna cum n disturb mi le... cum.. jus dun let mi caught u... i will break off ur hand... beware... i mean it... then i think for a while... n thought of hu got so bo liao... follow mi everydae ar... then look at the dent mark... it doesnt look as if it is hit by stone of hammer... coz the scratch on the tank... then i think of bike fall off n hit my bike... which coz the tank to becum like this... the 3 scratches on the tank seems to b the balancer of a bike then the other one seems like the edge of a brake... then y my on off button fall off... then think for awhile... hmmm... i think it a mirror which hit my on off button... then go buy paint for sharon... after tat when to sch... damn du lan... my mood turn off... saw yg... then i tell him... after tat i told adam n irvin... they c le n agree wif bike fall on my bike... n irvin sae maybe it a phantom... coz of the damage of my button... shit... y so suay... tmd... argh... wanna sell le.. then cum all this problem... i cant simply smile in sch... damn piss off... hai... then at nite reach home... she msn mi n ask mi wat happen to mi... hai... y cant u jus ask mi face to face... i dun need msn carin... wat i need is to b shown by u... understand... i dun wan to live like tat for ever... y cant in sch u jus ask mi y am i like this... wanna show care jus show... dun in msn then like tat... wat u scare of... maybe i look fierce... but do u think i will scold u... or eat u up... i wont... i born wif my face like tat... wat can i do... hai... my words r harsh in msn while we chat... i really dun understand y u seems dun care bout mi in sch... but in msn u can b so nice... wat u scare of... y cant u jus treat mi in msn during real life... i really dun understand.. maybe it seem tat in msg mi also like tat... n in real life mi also like tat... u scare to disturb mi... if u r disturbin mi then i wont even bother to reply le... now u already can treat mi so normal le... wat for scare tat u will disturb mi.... hai... jus b normal... i dont mean anithing... n i am not du lan... jus wan to make things clear... even a normal friend can ask mi face to face wat happen to mi... y cant u... still remember those things u sae to mi??? i already try to put all things down le... althought i cant... but i still can pretend tat we r friends... jus friend... tis is wat u wan... dun u... is mi hu scare to disturb u... not the opposite way... u got bf... n i am jus a NORMAL FRIEND... i cant ask for more... if next time wanna noe anithing can jus cum n ask mi... u sae it the same in msn n real life... but wat i can tell u is.. it is not the same... i think u should noe y... if wanna noe jus cum n ask mi... dun worry,... i will tell u de... whahaha... readin my blog maybe will make u piss off n in return maybe u will write back something in ur blog... dun worry... i onli write this time onli... jus to make things clear... i like the life u gif mi in cyber... but not in real life... dun get angry... this blog jus to let ppl noe how i think nia... dun worry... i nv du lan or angry... i told u le i duno how to speak well de... so i jus lettin my feelin out to tell ppl wat kind of person i am n wat i wish to haf... no harm... dun du lan ok...

MoViE...

watch movie wif pearlyn irvin n adam... land of the dead... veri er xin loh... kaoZZzz... some sort like resident evil... but more er xin... M18 movie... still kanna check IC sia... all of us look young ar... whahaha... open ur eyes n c la... 20+++ le... youngest is 19 loh... whahaha... show license... whahaha... after tat show we went back to AMK... irvin kanna stop by tp... then pearlyn hear tat the first tp ask the tp behind to stop the bike behind... lalala... tat was mi... get away wif it this time... whahaha... na ni na ni pooopooo... stupid TP cant catch mi... lalala... i was at the first lane... they are at the road side... behind got alot of car... i saw tat tp wave n ask dunno hu to stop... i jus hack care n go off... then i noe he was callin mi actually... whahaha... damn suay... hai... my luck is goin down le... suay ka hong kan... feed bird it will becum chicken ar... hai... got vb test this thursdae... hope everyone will do well... god bless....

QuiZzZzZZZZZzzzzzzzzz....

2005-08-15T03:19:00.000-07:00

hai... today got quiz... irvin yg n mi went to adam hse in the late nite to study for today quiz... lucky still got pearlyn to teach us... THANX PEARLYN... whahaha... the quiz was fine... but onli the mcq part is diff... hope can pass coz all of us we did well in the previous quiz... THANX TO PEARLYN again... hahaha... mi onli left VB to go nia... my ica got F... sian half... hope to clear my project soon... hai... now had to face on more project n quiz... still got 3 quiz comin up i think... damn hard... hope can pass... project... hai... i got to do a things which i nv even c b4... dunno how to start... sian... long time nv chat wif tat someone le... although xiang nian ta... but haf to xi guan... abit more!!! abit more n i will b FINE!!!! there nth tat i can do if i think of her... so i should stop... i dun wan to make myself as someone slave... keep CLEAR MIND JJ... yesh... i can do it de... i keep on tellin myself to forget it... hai... cant help it... it will always come out of my mind... must overcome... pls... adam jus called... ask mi to go bugis... they meeting mi at my blk downstair... my sis order pizza... jiaying comin to my hse to pass mi things... argh... like my time is so limited... keke... but nvm... at least for tis moment i will stop think of her for awhile... must sae sorry to adam... i hurt him... while we were playin i swing my arms n my helmet hang at my arm hit on his jaw... n he beaten his lips... got blood leh... so sorry dam... hai.. moody... y am i so like tat... i am not the person which i was... i think i should go to tcs... my actin skill are good tat no one can c tat i am sad every moment every dae... keke... good at hidin feelin... hai... i think wen lin got hao gan at shu xian... whahaha... maybe they will b tog ba... still ask mi to go chase her... siao... later kanna kill by her mum ar... whahaha... i got no time for other gers le... i dun dare le... scare kanna hurt again... maybe i dun trust ani one else le ba... the one which i luv the most has hurt mi the most... haha... wth... my heart got a hole... painess... hu can feel it.. pls tell mi wat to do... huiling also kanna hurt again... nvm... it ok... jus forget it... put all this behind our brain n dun must prevent it to come out... got ppl ask mi y dun i gif other gers a chance... let them sub her... haha... but infact i also doesnt wan ppl to treat mi as sub... i cant do tat... must clear my mind n must got feelin then can b tog... maybe we r not even tog ba... this relationship is to fu za le... can i sae tat i nv been hurt by her or bein hurt too deeply by her... i am mad... hai... ani one can gif mi so comment... i feel so useless, so lost... argh... wat can i do...

waste time...

2005-08-14T19:03:00.000-07:00

hai... slp till 5 plus todae... nua all the way ar.... yesterdae actually meetin adam de... but he go chalet so we cancel off the plan... then i meet wen lin, hui fen, rong xian and guo han to go for dinner at jalan kayu seafood centre... rong xian n guo han goin to taiwan for 1 mth... after tat we go to marine parade kbox to find my pals... we sing ktv till 2 plus... then we go off... reach our bike... mi n wenlin bike kanna shift... fuck got ppl move our bike... nbcb... they drop my bike while shiftin my bike... my backlight was smash... abit scretches... all of them agreed tat the person not purposely de... goz if purposely wont be so minor things le... damn du lan.... dun let mi find the person... he will get it from mi de... my plate broke, back light smash.... argh... i wont let them off easily... drop my bike n jus run off like tat... dun let mi find u... so sad... then we move to rong xian hse to get those spare parts... i diy myself... after tat nelly n huiling meet us... we went to geylang to eat "da You TiAO" then tok cock awhile then went home le... later at midnite still must meet adam to go his hse... tonite not slpin again le... argh... sian....

HaPpEnIn FriDae...

2005-08-13T03:29:00.000-07:00

i slp in the evenin as i tahan the whole dae le... cannot make it le...wake up around 7 pls... we plan to haf a project meetin de... call adam... he meet yg to wash bike...then call irvin... he sae he meetin mi... then ask mi to wait for him awhile... whahaha... within 2min... i fall aslp again... whahahaha.... he call mi for the next half an hour about 15 miss call... whahaha... then he call my hse... i coma le... whahaha...after tat we meet n study for awhile.. adam, yg and clarence meet us at our usual place... we part about 2 plus... then i went to kbox to find my pals... went over to melvin hse as we plan eariler... we went there to drink... first glass was taquila shot... power then follow by martell full glass... then keep on drinkin... we play games... whhahah.... melvin was so relax... the music n the lightin effect it jus like those ang mo pub... so suang... after tat it was 6 plus in the mornin le... one by one go off le... left mi, morris, qiang min, wen lin, rong xian, shu xian and one more guy from kbox.... i play wif melvin cat... damn hairy... bo si mao... veri cute... seems so lazy... whahaha... we play ps2... bishi bashi bushi... whaha... play until disturb each other... whaha... after playin we decide to go home le... i pillion shu xian home as she live tog wif mi... after gettin off my bike she told mi tat i ride veri wei xian... whahaha... but this is my style... no choice... PLAYLIFE... no one control mi... whahaha... we r the same de... actually i ride safely de... is jus tat i want to reach home fast n go slp... tired mah... whahaha
on the way home saw a die rat... nb... damn er xin...

Mahjong session...

2005-08-12T19:59:00.000-07:00

when to huiling hse to pa mahjong wif wen lin, nelly, hui fen, rongxian... lose 6 dollar... i dun like to gamble... but sometime play it is alrite for mi... from 12 we play until 7 plus... kao dame long... somemore still haf to go sch at 9.. so intend not to slp... pei my xiao lao po wait for bus... then when home... she ask mi to gif her a mornin call coz later on she still need to wrk... after tat mi when home le... after bathin i call adam, keying, jane, grace n irvin to wake up... tmd... call andrew his fone off ler... DUN SAE I OUTCAST U huh... hurhurhur... i call le hoh... after callin irvin... i fall aslp... whahaha... it was about 8.30 le... kao... when when i open my eyes it was around 10 le... shit... i was late n miss the first lesson... damn tired...

PiC DiScOVerY...

2005-08-11T15:03:00.000-07:00

XiAO Di BiKE... SeLLIn SoOn..
IrViN AT BoOn SiEW...
FeNnI At CHALeT CoOk FoR SoMe HuNGrY GhOsT... keke..
Mi AnD Ky... TaKEn IN ScH LaB...
I LuV ThE SkY...
SkY_LoVeR...

CLuBiN SeSSiOn...

2005-08-11T14:46:00.000-07:00

Mi & HuiLiNG

WeNLiN & Mi

XiAO LaO Po & Mi

XiAO LaO Po & Mi
it was fun since the last time i chiong back in the other century le... whahahaha.... but those pic taken isnt quite clear... blur blur de... somemore out of shape... next time we go out i bring my digicam ok... whahaha...

FiNdIN mY WaY...

Actually goin to club momo de... but due to something happen we change to double O... b4 tat i was at hougang kbox wif wen lin n kbox staff singin in one of the room... whahaha... FOC again... after tat make my way to club momo... then sua to double O... quite fun... but while goin to club momo... we had a hard time findin my way... first time ride bike to chiong... hai... nv drink much... onli on cup of volka redbull and a jug of volka orange... told them i cant drink much as i am riding a bike n tml need to go sch... scare later to drunk then cant ride bike... long time nv drink n get drunk le... i wan to get drunk as hope to numb my feelin... haha... best way.. keke... nvm this fridae go melvin hse drink da pao... martel... song si...

WhiLE GoIn HOmE...

it was about 3 plus le... double O Closin le... all of us stand outside the door n waitin for the next destination.. they plan to go KTV de... but i was so nua tat i dun even wanna sing... my xiao lao po jio mi go wif her to sing HAO XIN HAO BAO... as for mi, i learn becoz we want to sing tog.. like last time like tat SI XIN BU GAI... whahaha... we sang alot of duet song tog le n this will b our next target... keke... still learnin... hope i sing le ni bu hui shi wang... hahaha... my voice not good scare later like kill chicken then make u all listen to the screamin of a duck... whahaha...

WAkIn Up FOR Sch..

hurhur... my xiao lao po wake mi up at 8 n ask mi to go sch... how swt to haf a person which is so wu xim... so good... she slp in the mornin n make an affort to set alarm clock at 8am n get out of her bed jus to wake mi up... how swt... thanx alot leh... i nv even ask her to wake mi up n she did tat on her own... so wu xim... so good...

WhILE In ScH...

go to sch early in the mornin jus to scan my card n go eat breakfast... haha.. such a waste... after my vb lesson they told mi we dun haf vb tut later on... so shiok... haha... can go home early... went to buy paint for sharon n go back to sch to gif her.. then meet adam they all at the bike carpark to go for lunch... we had our lunch at amk S-11 530... after eatin adam went to wrk.. keying went to meet her mum... yong gui went sch to go project... irvin go slp as usual... as for mi i haf nth to do so plan to do my squence diagram later on... irvin n i was the last to go off... while ridin, it start to rain... i got home on time... nv get myself too wet... poor irvin.. he got himself wet even the ********* also wet le... wahaha... so sorry.. let u wait for mi so long becoz i was smokin... he told mi a stupid lorry n a "diputs" lexus driver nearly bang on him... DRIVER, PLS DO CHECK BLINDSPOT N PLS STOP AT STOP LINE CHECK LE THEN GO... tmd... they cause danger to our life leh... stupid driver...

NaTiOnAL DAE...

2005-08-09T19:00:00.000-07:00

haha... plan to wake up early de... but when i woke up it was already 3 plus le... half of my body cant move... i wanted to sit up... but i can use ani strength as my chest was like being punch... damn pain... muscle was jus like tearin apart... then i go back to the same position to rest for awhile... try for sometimes finally got up from bed... haha... eat at home... waitin for NDP to start. while waitin i went to petrol station as we all receive a msg sae tat 40% off... petrol station was damn pack... but all kanna fake.. haha... onli 15%.. duno hu the hell hu pass those msg... when back home to rest n watch tv... whole dae nua at home... no place to go... saw wenlin n my sis bf in tv... last time is opposite as i perform in NDP for 2 times... saw rui en.. whahaha... she slim down alot... more n more chio le... whaha... remember tat time we filmin.. she jio mi go eat then treat mi eat swt... how swt... hai.. take pic.. now no chance le la... keke... luv the style she was in... so pretty... c those firework... so nice... but no gf le... ah bo will bring her to singapore river to watch it.. last time i watch wif my ex gf... whahaha... so romantic... after tat meet up wif those guy to eat supper at prata shop... when to play number wif adam n xiao ming... saw wenlin ah boon huifen n rx... play for awhile then notice it was already 5 le... then mi n adam go eat breakfast... haha... dun think we can slp le... now waitin for adam to call mi... meet him in sch to study first then go for the 8 oclock lesson... hurhur...

8 of aug...

2005-08-08T06:02:00.000-07:00

haha... it noe as hell ridin dae... b4 tat i went to sch to haf my java n OOADPJ lesson... receive my java ICA point... i score 74.5... after tat went to seoul garden wif irvin, pearlyn, adam, keying and yong gui... eat till damn full... whahaha... stomach also come out le ar... keke... then go play number ball wif rong xian, adam and wenlin... forget about the dinner i haf in the evenin... hai.. nv go... so sian... xiaodi call mi to go... they sae veri sian... mi wenlin rongxian nv go.. they sae no one entertain... nth to do... keke... play number ball till 11 plus.. after tat go home n change... meet them for ridin... whahaha... chu chia.... so fun... we wait for adam to reach then we go to east coast park nua... i took 3 chairs... n nua... fall aslp.. keke.. nv take fotoh... wasted... about 2 cars n 7 bikes... 2 super4... 1 sp... 3 kawa... 1 phantom 150... 1 bmw... 1 cerfiro... after tat we went home... play pick up wif rong xian.... whahaha... so fun... long time nv drag le... run until veri song... whahaha... all of us scare tp... mi wenlin rongxian n travis all change to clear visor... haha... hum ji... dun wan to sponsor them 50 dollar... keke...

hmm... :p

2005-08-07T18:00:00.000-07:00

hai... jus wake up... feel abit down... adam goin to get his bike le... irvin waitin for clz 2a for tp le... feel tat i am so lousy... i cant compare to others... my mood for this few daes r like shit... seems so ok... seems so happi... seems so enjoy... but it totally opposite... i dunno y... i can lauf out of my lung to make my stomach burst... but my mood wasnt like tat... there a hole in it... i feel cold... i left wif nth... today i try to do my practical during my practical lesson.. ha... u noe wat... when i was about to save bcoz of the lesson ended... the com hang... argh!!!!... program not responding... while doin the project i damn du lan... i duno how to do... hai... lucky got irvin to help mi... but PAI SEI... maybe i got show abit of attidute ba... sorri.. then after tat i do my statement of absence for yesterdae lesson bcoz i was late n havin a headache... findin those stupid teacher name was like hell... i already pek cek le then i try to do it fast le... coz i not use to the system n my pals r waitin for mi... i so i ask them to go first loh... then yg sae i show him attidute... maybe he was jokin... but still need to apologise to him... SORRY... actually GUYS N GERS.... i haf no mood... duno y.. keep on feelin sad and down... i need ppl to comfort mi... but i was tryin to avoid everyone... hai... wat had happen to mi... i can simply control my feelin... i hate tat to happen... my heart is like jelly...

hurhur... today she msg mi again... saw tat msg... it was meaninful... but i noe i wont do tat... i wont always be smiling... my mood simply sucks.... till the last two msg which i sent she nv reply... guess she was wif him le ba...

i hope i can buy a new helmet when i got my pay this mth... i wan to decorate it to be the same as mine... but i wont put ani name on it.. jus put ? at the helmet where i put my name... but sometime think y i waste money to buy a new helmet... there's no one for mi to fetch... n no one hu willin to wear the helmet... so maybe i should jus make this clear out of my head...

jus now login msn.. saw rx so tok to him awhile... keep on askin mi to go out... i sae i veri tired then he sae mi buay steady... but i didn gif a damn... i jus wanna slp... jus receive a call from wen lin... ask mi to go bishan to find them... dun feel like goin out... but if now dun go out i think later i will stay at home whole dae le... i veri sian... i dun feel like stayin at home...

Audrey add mi in friendster... long time nv saw her le... she was anderson liondance de... this sch was taught by my troupe... although long time nv go le... but i promise tat i wont go to other troupe as they wan to pull mi over... tml 5.30 must CHU SHI... awhile onli... they call mi n ask mi to chu... dun feel like goin... but no choice... long time nv go le... go down play afool... although i am the so call LAO JIAO over there... but my heart has already fly to somewhere else le... i dun feel like playin it animore... hope everything will settle down fast...

i feel like cryin... but i haf no tears.. i told myself not to drop anymore tears le.. i break my promise when i was wif her... i drop the first tears after so mani years... but in the end.. she still doesn belong to mi de... so i dun think ani one in this world worth to let mi drop my tears animore...

hurt is a word which always seems painful...

painful is bcoz of wat has happen in the past...

past is a history which will be the memorise...

memorise is something which u can learn from...

maybe i am not the best person which stays in ur life...

but wat i haf gif u is already the best of wat i haf...

i always wanted to try to gif u more of wat i haf...

i try to gif u the best of wat i can...

but i haf learn the lesson...

the best of wat i haf is not enough for u...

the best of wat i haf is much more poorer than him...

the best of wat i haf cant b notice by u...

the best of wat i haf u sae tat i did nth...

the best of wat i haf seems nth much to u...

and the best of wat i haf is being crash by u...

i try n try to make u feel like a princess...

but the more i try, the more i feel sad...

u haf nv ever forget him...

u haf nv even taken mi in...

JJ has die... wat was left was a walkin zombie...

i haf no feelin... i haf no heart...

no mood...

i am a person hu dunno swt toks... wat i sae u must remember... k... all wat i haf told u durin the past was wat my feelin r... i haf no guts to do tat again... n i guess no one will ever heard it ani more.. i choose to b alone... unless tat someone appear into my life again... i simply cant get over it... if it really tat the end of our story... i think it will b a full stop for u le ba... i really dun wan it to happen... u r the first ger which can hurt mi so much... i haf put in all i haf le... but u still told mi tat i did nth... no one think of my feelin b4... the best which i gif was nth to a person... sad ar... although it has been past... but i still remember some of the words... u lie to mi... u sae u will nian si wo de... u sae u wont go back to him... u sae u luv mi more than u luv him.. u sae alot more which i think i shouldn bring it back le... i haf no mood to carry on.. i am sad... i belive u at first... but when those things happen... my heart has already been broken into pieces by u.. do u still remember wat u told mi... maybe now u already si xin le ba... but i really miss the daes which we r together... becoz of u... u make mi think of endin my life here... but lucky i nv o tat becoz some one stop mi... we start on the dae which is so special to mi... it my birthdae... n being together was one of my wish which didn last... ARGH!!!!~~~~... sobzsobzsobz... :~~~ hai.. hope i wont think too much... this blog is for mi to write out how i feel onli... after writin i think i will b better... haha... must go out le.. late le... listen to HAO XIN HAO BAO... listen to the lyrics... BUAI!!!~

So sHoCK...

2005-08-06T17:30:00.000-07:00

yesterdae b4 meetin adam they all i was wif qiang min, wen lin, rongxian and johnson... i meet them at bishan then after awhile we go rong xian blk tat side... becoz rx n wen lin need to wrk... so we plan to go hougang play billiard... rong xian n johnson change bike n ride... i was at the front... after turnin out of the car park... at a stop line b4 a left turn, i was perparin to stop le... so i slow down... i heard a bike which valve is still open... cut mi by my right... directly infront of mi i saw he start to brake n lose control of his bike... it start to fishtail then tyre lock.. johnson flew of from the bike... i was shock... faster brake n go down to help him... he stand up n sae he veri dizzy.... rong xian piggy back him to a void deck to rest... mi n wen lin push the bike in... at tat moment i was totally shock... after pushin all the bike one by one to the road side... i go n c how was him.... ask him go hospital he dun wan... then notice his finger nail drop off... wa... damn scary n damn painful... kao... the blood was like free one... kao.. mi n rx wen to buy mineral water to help him wash his wound... his body was cramp like prawns... all shrink... wa.. damn scary... i help him message to relax his muscle... after a while his right hand was alittle soft le.. the muscle doesn seems to tense up le... i stop... but it cramp again... then i ask him to wait for a while... we stay there about 2 hr ba... after tat his pals also come le... then we bring him to clinic to clean his wound... wa... damn jia lat... he vomite... we scare tat it was blood... lucky it onli due to the impact which tis accident haf... c le damn sad... a friend buang infront of mi... wa... shock...

bad mood...

2005-08-03T20:52:00.000-07:00

today i over slept again... haha... nv go sch... goin to get a mc later... tokin to my pals in msn.. n tokin to her in msn... hai... shouldn haf start topic on her bf again... i dun like him.... he make mi think of the first time we met... starein at mi like one of his own kind... fook.... maybe i am also not good... i hate ppl to stare at mi... hai... forget it... pass le... sitin in my room... damn cold... heart is cold... so lonely... must find some one to accompany mi le... dunno whether to go to vb lesson... my attendance was like fuk... hai.. hu wans to accompany mi jus msg mi... whahahahaha... so sian....

Fail MY BTT...

2005-08-03T04:47:00.000-07:00

whahaha... i fail my btt which i nv study much... the new btt was difficult... it so different... keep askin mi change lane thingy... hurhurhur... mi, irvin and andrew all fail... the btt was total of 50 questions... n i think i saw tat it stated need 50 to pass... tat means 100% in order to pass.. hai... how to... after tat bring adam to LIM AH BOY to buy bike stuff... then go make stickers... hurhur... i brought a adidas stickers which was in green for myself... then help pearlyn to do a roxy flower which can b seen onli in malaysia... the stickers shop scan n save my roxy flower... while doin stickers i saw wen lin rong xian n travis... haha. so qiao.... they go ah boy shop n i wanted to go home... when on the way sendin adam to amk mrt station... i kanna ERP... so shit.. u noe wat... when i saw those UNCLE SAM... i realise something was wrong.. then saw the ERP thingy operate... argh... nv out cash card.... call adam for help... he took out his cash card on time.. n while in the first lane... i put in the cash card... haha... "di di" the IU make those sound... then i realise my card i put it opposite.. argh... i am so stupid... PUI!!!~~~~ kanna fine again for ERP thingy... hai... adam wans to pay half for it... but i reject... whahaha... THANx ADAM... but it was my fault.. hurhur... later meetin xiao di... got ppl wanna view his bike at tampines... hurhur... accompany him go... c how the deal... feel like sellin off my bike le... but bu she de... i luv my bike... although the external was involve in an accident b4... but the internal stuff r good n powerful... i play wif rx... he mock his bike n i win him... whahaha... my bike is original but no power cut.. tat y i can win... if not i dun think i can win him... his bike was fast... last time play wif him loss to him b4 becoz my piston got problem... now ok le... but need to change tyre le...

today in sch was quite fine... i disturb her jus as normal... but i dun feel like... coz i scare my feelin is still there... but c her veri sian... coz grace wasnt there... nobody accompany her... then i disturb her for the whole dae... she started to pinch mi le... maybe she "she de le ba" her feelin for mi haf gone wif the wind le ba... so fast.... but nvm... maybe i also change alot le... although i can sae i dun luv her animore... becoz my feelin was still there... but i haf been control myself since the dae she hurt mi deeply... i wan back my jun yan... i dun wan like as if i keep on beggin her to come back... i dun haf her i also can live de... it jus tat i am lonely n back off for relationship... i haf no guts to involve in an relationship again... i am scare... jus hope tat somedae sometime my mrs rite will be there for mi...

live in lonely,

live in fear,

urge for guts,

tats wat i need.

luv is jus like a rose...

it is the sweeters when it jus bloom...

if u wans to hold onto it..

the spikes will poke on u...

luv is the best when u start groomin each dae...

after sometimes when u r hurt, u wont find it beautiful animore...

I MISS U................

kan jiong

2005-08-02T12:29:00.000-07:00

jus got back from malaysia... b4 tat meet adam n irvin doin the dbms project... sit in the car n feel like vomitin... maybe is becoz my posture not correct ba... but jus feel bad... whahaha... after tat meet yg, ah boon, huifen, rong xian + irvin n pearlyn to go malaysia... then went back home le...

tml still got btt.... haben study yet... damn nua... still must reach sch early to complete my project.. yesterdae my sis is back from thailand... she brought mi 3 shirt... also cute cute one... i luv the shirt which printed onli it "nobody like u"... my sis also got... this is the 2nd shirt which we haf the same le... hahaha...

afternoon... i slp till 1... late for sch... hai... forget keying card is wif mi... hai.. damn guilty... hai.. late le.. rushin for sch... still got a stupid old nissan sunny p plate somemore... infront of mi i ridin 40 n i was tailgatin him.. wtf... so scare to die ar... drive so slow... the best part was he park n i wait there for him to park... nv let ppl go first... so fuck up.... like the carpark is own by his dad like tat... i also got pay road tax ler... stupid driver...

during lecture i scan my card n went off to do my project... after tat so suay then teacher ask question n call on my name n i wasnt there... shit.. she mark mi absent... fuck la... somemore andrew sae i absent... but he has no wrong coz he nv c mi... not his fault... b4 tat got abit du lan... but not his fault... coz he wont do it on purpose.. jus now he call mi n apologise... n i told him nvm... DUDE FORGET IT.... i wont take it to my heart... dun worry... i will take it thue my lungs... whahahaha. jus jokin...

luvin u was wat i did...

givin u trust was wat i do...

nv think of hurting u...

nv think of lettin go...

but in the end i was left alone...

wat has done was an unreturn...

the way u choose was wat i accept...

i've nv let go till the dae u hand off...

wat i do was cryin all alone...

i pray to god n hope to haf chance..

wat i get is a word stupid...

i luv u more than i luv myself...

but hurt myself is all i get...

To be fair i choose to be peaceful...

i haf drawn back...

but tat's wat i choose...

hide in a corner where nobody notice...

i haf no pals n i am a sadist...

i trust u but u betray mi...

wat a true friend is a sadness to mi...

the best birthdae present is wat i haf...

a wish has been granted...

but tat doesn last...

"i luv u"

is all i haf for u...

a word "i miss u" is more than enough...

i miss u too but i cant tell u...

wat u sae was enough to kill mi...

my heart has broken although i luv u..

u r the ger which i luv the most...

n u r the ger which hurt mi most...

i haf no memorise i haf no soul...

a perfect zombine tat wat i call...

hai...

TiReD....

2005-08-01T01:07:00.006-07:00

yesterdae... whole dae workin at amk... hai... so sian... nth to do then go home get my lap top to watch vcd... rent some disc then watch till my shop close... hai... closin was fuk up... nv help my friend to check her closin... alot of mistake... hai... reach home then slp le... 10 plus then slp... slp till mornin about 8 plus then wake up le... continue watch the movie shaolin vs evildeath... quite good... but no story line de... but graphic damn good... now in sch doin nth... teacher late le... hai.. sian... sux leh.... still need to study...

WaT HaPpEN...

2005-07-30T12:41:00.000-07:00

today wrk whole dae... heard tat i in heeren did some mistake... n everyone also did mistake.. most of us wil need to top up money... listen le sian half... tmd... today ah gao confirm wif jiao lian tat he will leave le... sian half... less n less ppl... dun worry guys... some dae later i will pull them back one by one... but it need times... jus now meet adam to study... not much mood to study... so nua... holidae last day le... mon start schling again... sux... tml cant b late le... my shop key is wif mi... need to wake up early... hai.. so pressure... sian.. y they choose to go... nv jun shi zhong dao.. although i dun care much about liondance le... but wat i feel is tat all my skill was taught by my coach i shouldn let him down... although alot of ppl ask mi to go to their troupe... but i reject le... i dun feelin like playin liondance le... tat was wat i think... yingjia apologise to mi about he attidute he gif mi... hai... i yuan liang him le... but i told him i still will haf xin bing... kao... bo pian... cant recover so fast de...

TirED WeeK...

2005-07-28T14:55:00.000-07:00

This whole week is so tired... everydae slp about 2 hr onli... hai... got chalet, got friends birthdae, got project... today jus went for audition... the ppl there was damn good... actually damn scary leh... shiver while on stage... sing the first song which was without music... the judges sae tat i sang tat song can hear the sadness in it... whahaha... it was wo zhen de shou shang le... the second song was a last min de... hui you na mei yi tian... it is with music de... can hear from my voice tat i am quite nervous... haha.. but if loss le... i also gan yuan... they r damn good... got alot is student from music sch de... even my xiao lao po is also from music sch de... she perform quite good... after tat when to kbox... the whole kbox like our place... foolin around as we got 3 person birthdae n celebrate at the same time... n so good tat they organise it at mp kbox.. which my friend was the outlet supervisor over there... every time go kbox damn cheap de... each of us onli a few dollar onli or free de... mostly is free de... n drink until mad... free flow of beer n softdrink... keke... my xiao lao po force mi to sing hao xin hao bao wif her... hai... i dunno how to sing.. but still try.. must go learn le...

dun think we purposely late can!!!!

actually i got up on time.... n wont be late de... bcoz of something cope up in the middle... i feel damn sorry to wenlin... hai... dun think tat we wan to b late ok... wen in ask mi to go funeral to help carry coffin de... mi think of goin n irvin they all wait for my ans whether to wait of not to wait... dun blame them.. wanna blame jus blame mi... hai... already so sad le still let ppl think tat we r purposely late de... i nv go to the funeral bcoz of the project... his my BRO n i nv go down... kao... i really feel ashame to b his bro... hai... after the project i went back to the chalet then go tan tock seng le... waited for 4 hr n haben c the doctor yet... so long... then we go off le... whent back to chalet... feel hungry... fenni n xuebin was so kind... they bbq n gif mi eat.... whahaha... so xin fu.. haha.. mornin about 7 to 8 then fall aslp while tokin... tmd... slp till 10 plus to 11 plus slp about 3 hr... then go off n late for meet adam... so paisei..

haha... go to adam hse first enter to his hse spoil his hamster cage le... after i get my pay i will return him a cage if i can... he put it on the floor at the doorway... then i come in without notice n step on it... the plastic crack... hai... after tat we eat at adam hse... i thought i am the last to reach le... but hu noe... i am not... still got OTHER PPL late lor... whahhaha... sian de la... everytime project dae got things cope up one... so suay... my memory is weaker as dae go along... hai... sorry if one dae i forget U!!... whahaha... i am losin my memory le... sometimes even wat i sae le then next moment i will forget le... so jia lat... hai... my blog was actually to let mi recall the pass de.. keke...

Wat A Dae...

2005-07-25T11:27:00.000-07:00

hai... early in the mornin wake up by my mum... shit... she think tat i today actually got sch and i miss sch bcoz i cant wake up... hai... so suay... swt dream but awaken by her... after tat 2nd time wake up at 2 plus was call by irvin... bcoz i told them i am goin out wif them to aunte shop.. hurhur... i do a sticker which wat custom make... i done tat for my helmet... keke... it my name... i like it veri much... but maybe got abit beng... whahaha... after tat we go meet yg to wash our bike... damn... my bike was so dirty... alot of grease which was stuck at the swing arm... hai... wash until like mad n finally got it done... heehee... so happi... still wax... although my bike got alot of stretches... but after cleanin it... it look different... haha... now mi at chalet doin nth... although i duno them well... but still can communicate... haha... fenni scare i sian... keep on tok to mi... she also face alot of stress ba... i wonder if this world we can live without stress how would it be... hai... hard time findin the internet connection... sittin outside wif alot of ppl walk pass... jus like an internet idoit doin blog down there... whahaha... fenni ask mi to cum on wed for bbq too... still haben decide whether to go or not... coz scare my project will do till quite late... duno wanna go where ler... so lame... so sian... hai... lucky got my com wif mi.. ah bo i will die le... saw desmond heng... my sec sch mate... change alot... whahaha... hai... wat to do... feel like goin to slp le... abit tired...

FuLlY BooK.. hurhur...

2005-07-24T16:38:00.000-07:00

this few dae damn tired... workin plus goin down to wen lin grandma song ka... his grandma jus pass away becoz of cancer... hai... so sad... hai.. yesterdae was damn tired... slp about 2 hr again... everyday like tis.. it seems tat pass few dae i haf been slpin less than 10 hr all tog... so tired... suppose to wrk at heartland mall de... but hu noes.. when i reach there... jus bought my fishball from old chang kee... then receive a call for andy to ask mi to go to heeren bcoz tat side short of man power... n somemore my brake spoil... tmd damn suay... on the way to orchard... tmd it rain... i am totally wet... hai... saw sherlene qing wen n my friends... long time nv wrk wif them le... whahaha... so happi to c them... hurhur... after wrk i went home n start preparin to go to song ka again... while i was on the way ridin my bike... a uncle who was quite old... cyclin at the middle of the road.. n i am at the left hand side of the road... a car went tail gate the uncle... fook... he shift towards the path which i was ridin without check in his blind spot... i do an e brake n it went fish tail again... near buang again... hai...damn hot... i ride beside him n wanted to shout at him... but when i saw his face... my intention stop... he was too old le... later scold le "nei jiu".. ask him ok anot... n he told mi he was fine then i went off le... hai... meet irvin n yg at 12++ go malaysia... before we went in we go meet adam... he was gettin first hand super4 spect 3.. went in malaysia.. singapore custom jam until like hell... think of goin to make stickers.. but shop close... hai... went in for nth... tmd... stupid shop... go eat then went back singapore le... go song ka play majohn... damn tired... slp there till mornin... then went back home le...

ShAcK DaE...

2005-07-22T12:56:00.000-07:00

after sch bring adam go find bike... pillion him till bukit merah view bike... spect 2 was about 7.2k to 8k... wonderin how am i goin to have my super4 next... sianz... those bike over there wasnt in great condition.. wasnt new at all... although plate r new got fw plate... but all those condition of the engine listen le feel like shit... whahaha... after tat we all bring him to euno link jus behind my godfather company... a friend intro us there. the bike which we choose was in good condition... fv plate... plate num is fv6006* whahaha... nice rite... about 7.5k.. thing r quite new... we tok to the person in-charge... told him to quote a price for him... after tat i ask for free item... ask him to gif belly pan n 3 angle engine guard... n tat person + a new spray paint to it.. whahaha... damn good. luck i n rx noe ppl hu r regular customer over there... hurhur... onli waitin for adam confirmation of the bike then it will be sold to him... so suang.... adam choose white gold... i wan it at first... but nvm gif it to him since he like it... i think i wil get white background n baby blue honda wing.. haha. should be quite nice... after tat we went to ubi to look for aprila rs250 for rx... but not a single soul of tat bike.. heehee.. so suay... we saw a good condition super 4 spect 2... we as for the price... tmd... damn good. shiny one ler... yoshimura pipe... got damper 3 angle engine guard and belly pan wif some more accessory... damn nice... but the price also nice... about 8.3k or 8.5k ar... fx plate... whahaha... sianz... Went home slp... clarence wake mi from my dream land n ask mi go out... went out wif them n we go dam then go jalan kayu eat... after tat when back too... got 3 clz 2 bike... 3 2a bike...7 2b bike... n one car... damn shiok... feel tired whole dae... so face abit sian sian... when then my turn to find a new 2a bike.. still got 1mth plus to go... sian... xiao di tml selling away his kips le... buyin super4 also... found his bike le... view le... hai... so fast... he sold to a guy for 3.5k... so sad... plus a super 4 rider... a kawa rider gone... hai... fast 2a tp... plsss... i cant wait to get a new bike... two bro pipe i comin le... whahaha... wait for mi...

hahaha...

2005-07-21T20:16:00.000-07:00

haha.. tmd.. in sch writin blog kanna disturb by adam... while editin my post i go toliet.. he type stupid things... all the way hahaha... siao... good rite... happenin in 2104 practical... whahaha... hai... dunno how to do the domain diagram... so sian... haha... yesterdae finally found the song tat i wan le... "hao xin hao bao" damn nice... later go home must upload le... haha... this song make mi delete all photo n song in my phone memory.. sian... lucky yesterdae go kbox.. haha.. saw shuling "kbox receptionist" get from her... so good... i finally got the song le... listen so mani time.. but still dunno how to sing... bcoz it's cantonese... i am not veri gd at cantonese... haha... irvin jus spoil the chair... everyone lauf in clz... haha... damn funeee... my clz damn happenin...

SiNgIn AuDiTiON aGAin..

2005-07-21T02:50:00.000-07:00

heehee... this time round is the standard audition le.. mi n my xlp goin tog.. they jus call mi to go for the audition next thursdae... must prepare 2 songs. one is singin without music... another one is wif music onli... sian... sudden attack... dunno wat to sae... i told them i will go... but wat i am think is tat i shouldn go coz i got to do project... sch is more importance... i dun decidin ler... hai.. so fan... it belong to a singin sch... i think is a recordin company ba... i forget the name le.. veri scare leh... hai... sianz... hope my voice will b alright tat day.. hai.. until now still havin cough lor.. sian...

NeaRlY diE...

2005-07-20T19:08:00.000-07:00

fuck the driver.. nearly had a car accident yesterdae... i was ridin straight and i was goin the right way but a car hu is turnin right dash out of the road n stop directly infront of mi.. i do an e-brake until lose control n my back tyre "fish tail"... i nearly fall... my bike goin to fall le.. lucky my leg went down n kick on the floor to stable my bike... i swing my bike to an angle to avoid the car... stare at the driver for quite sometime.... he look at mi and act like nth had happen... damn du lan.. shit him.. feel like killin him... hai...

FaNzzzzz....

2005-07-20T13:49:00.000-07:00

candi spy.. eatin pocky..

mi & keying
mi and ky
hai... wen lin hse got problem goin on... he told mi about it... hope to help him but for wat i noe i cant help much... so sian... my brother leh... wat cant i do to let him jump out of all this... i wish to help... he help mi when i got problem... so sad... today i go watch voice out.. it was totally not wat i expected... watch wif fenni n xue bin... the first group sang n the mic went off... haha... totally sux... dunno how they manage it.. they r not bad but jus tat the ppl hu control all this wasnt gd at all... watch till the solo part... i wonder how they choose them... haha... maybe is i lousy then them ba... the whole voiceout i watch until wanna slp... nth special... i thot i can hear a better one.. at least let mi lost until xin fu kou fu.. but instead, i was thinkin n belive on wat my pals sae... the judges has no standard... i hear a ger hu sing quite nice at the dae of audition... but she didn get in too... for my judgement of voice, i noe how does a good singer n a "so-so" singer sound like... those ppl hu enter voice out doesn haf ani groove n rythem in their singin.. they simply use their throat n sing.. not enough breath... they breath by nose n the first word when they sing gif off too much air n u can heard them durin they sing... fenni ask mi lost to them will i feel like takin a knife n stab myself.. haha... if my xlp listen le she confirm will kao pei kao bu one... coz she from the singin sch... she learn all that b4... hai... wat i heard during voice out audition tat day... some of them really haf nice voice... but the judges didn choose them... judges r some student which duno from where.. they r from 3 year i think... no standard in listen... hai... really sux... while i was lining up to get into the place there was a ger hu remember mi.. so shock tat ppl can remember mi... whahaha... today i did my ooad quiz... i noe a guy from group 14... haha.. he approach mi n ask mi whether i am from group 15... he name was ken... after introduce ourself we chat.. quite shock tat he noe i am from group 15... i wan to b low profile... i dun wan to be last time le...

MoOdY...

2005-07-19T11:12:00.000-07:00

hai.. duno y i start turnin moody again... mood swing here n there... today my java quiz sux.... i totally cant do it... damn difficult. i think i am goin to flank tat paper le... my original wrk cant compound... coz of main method got problem... hai... in the end KY sent it to my email then i cut n paste it into my project then can do... so sux... hai... cant do it on my own... sian.. i told jason tat i cant do.. he told mi tat paper was difficult... every sheng sae it is diff... should i belive him.. or he was jus ang wei mi.. i feel ashame... hai... alot of us sae tat paper.. our face straight away change... next week is term break.. tat mean exam comin nearer n nearer... sian... i simply nua all the way... wat had happen to mi... i change... kou kou sheng sheng sae i wan to study.. but i am damn lazy... i cant fail.. i dun wan to repeat 1 sem... dun wan to be like the dirty guy... i dun wan... i scare to b lonely again.. think of the feelin i will turn moody.. hai.. so sian... the feelin duno how to sae ar... tml must waste alot of money... need to do insurance need to renew my road tax... hai.. jus borrow money from my mum.. hai.. i hate to use their money on wat i wan... but no choice... i am broke... hai.. lucky fiona this mth ask mi to wrk every sat n sun... although tired but no choice... i haf to wrk to get wat i wan... Leng buy new fone.... S700I sony ericsson... 1.3 mega pix.. 262 color resolution... so gd n clear... hai... i dunno when can i change to 6680... sae so long le.. buy nv buy... still got alot of things leh... hai... my super4 spect 1 or 2... my 2a license... alot more leh... money NOT ENOUGH... hope to wrk more... get my pay return my mum n my sis... save money to buy super4... i wan super4... hai.. must wait veri long le.. sianz... thinkin of how to put two javascript into tis blog... hai.. sian... still figurin out... sure can de... i belive... hai.. feel like sing... must go ktv somedae... although my voice still haben come back bcoz of my illness... but my mood is there.. dunno hu wan to go ktv to watch mi "kill chicken".. haha... this few daes my head was spinnin round n round... feel like vomitin... dunno y ler... hai... PROJECT D ("initial d") watch till esp 15 le... waitin for 16 to come out... hai... sianz....

LeaRnIN...

2005-07-18T11:50:00.000-07:00

hai... start to blog again... mi already forgets all html codin le... Find difficult to understand.. kao... gif all back to my html teacher le.. haha... figure out how to put java codin and all stuff... wanna make my blog nice nice ler... but i onli haf limited knowledge... so sian... tml got data structure but now wat time le.. haben study yet... n keep on doin blog.. whahaha... slackin all the way... think about it also sian... today jus got back my quiz for 2106... c le sian haf... 30 over 40... so lousy... as for my voiceout... hurhur... sick n sing.. no voice.. wat can i ask for more.. kanna kick out le... hahaha.... predicted... sian.. hai... so si bai.. wat andrew told mi was all those hu make it into final is those sing english songs de.. they even bring their own music or instrument.. mi leh.. bring nth except myself.. sing chinese song.. fenni was gd.. she sae the judges duno how to appreciate.. whahaha... irvin sae they no standard.. wat can i sae... haha... i jus told them "i am lousy" keke... ke ying sae i am not... i really appreciate tat they make an effort to comfort mi... although i am sad but nvm it ok... those judges r jus students from our sch... whahaha... chermaine ask mi to helpthem find celebrites to b the judges.. not i dun wanto help.. is jus tat hu will come to nyp to b judges without MONEY... they r veri xian shi de... although i noe some of them but no use callin them as i noe the result n i noe wat will they do n how they will reject it.. i noe it all... wat for doin those confirm ans things... whahaha... ADAM... if u r lookin at it.. N IRVIN.. dun lauf at my english ok... its JJ LANGUAGE... whahaha... i really appreciate them... counted as close friends ba... must sae thanx to them... n not forgetin ANDREW and KE YING... they r my best buddies in sch.. when i am down they r always there... sometimes also pai sei to tell them my stuff.. coz really jia lat la.. dun make them think so much.. scare they worry for mi.. i hope to keep on bringin laufter to u guys... keke... they gif mi warmest... I luv them as a pals... in sch they gif mi alot of encourage de.. although i always "suan" them... they still wont du lan.. haha... i noe i am bad.. but onli this way i can bring life out... maybe to u all i a not someone hu is gd to b a pals ba... but wat i hope is tat we could be pals forever... haha... ANDREW u if u saw this dun scold mi ok... haha... hai... if onli nth has happen before... n i could be the same.. i tried.. but i cant... my heart already got a hole in it... A WALKIN ZOMBIE.. keke... tat's wat i call myself... a person wif no heart in doin everything... i find myself doin nth for the group all the time.. maybe i am onli a wastage of air, time, extra space and money ba.. poor daniel n my group member... wat i can sae is tat i still cant get over it... i hate myself for being so weak... i haf nv loss ani thing b4 till sec 4 i think... i cant take it... as for keying.. words for u "DUN TAKE THINGS TOO HARD FOR URSELF, DUN TAKE EVERYTHING SO SERIOUS.." life doesnt haf it best time all the time... when something happen u will start to grow up abit n abit.. appreciate everythings in life as life is short.. appreciate everyone.. sae thanx.. even a bad comment ppl has gif u or watever.. stay happi.. at least they tell u.. u learn a new thing by not doin those things again.. haha... *craps* haha...

A TirED DaE... BuT i FouND It HApI... keke..

2005-07-17T11:31:00.000-07:00

Yesterdae jus slp about 3 hr then wake up n go wrk le... so tired... all of us feel slpy coz my friends yesterdae go to devils bar choing ler.. they ask mi go but i dun wan.. coz meeting my wen lin mah.. hai.. today during wrk er toh call mi n jio mi go in malaysia.. i promise him to go le. but in the end, i haf to wait for rx n ah mond.. hai... make irvin n yg wait for mi.. so pai sei... go in malaysia jam until like mad. still got ppl cut queue lor.. damn piss off... i purposely go tailgate him n keep on bangin on his bike back tyre. haha... he turn around look at mi then i gif him a tu lan face.. he turn back n nv look at mi again.. whahaha... so funnee... went in ah qua lane (a place where ppl do their bikes) rx n ah mond they both repair bike... mi go there nua then go c sticker.. keke... but some stickers to paste on my helmet... got monkey got flyin pig.. roxy wording... n quicksliver... damn nice... i like it veri much.. wanna do my name de... design already but tat person sae must wait for one dae... siao.. hu will do stickers in malaysia n wait for one day.. like i stay there like tat.. haha.. i rather do in singapore. although more ex... but more convinence... hai... finding more stickers to paste on my bike n my helmet... must make nice nice... hehe... thinkin of buyin a new helmet.. as my old helmet has scratches all over when buang n plus something else... savin up to buy new version of hyper helmet.. veri nice.. but price also veri nice... dunno hu will b the next to wear this helmet... hai... i think wont haf second person le ba.. so scare of relationship le... draw back le... i rather stay in my lonely land than makin myself got hurt again... unless the other party promise not to hurt mi... dunno y... after tis things although i cant forget but i think i got use to it le ba... Lonely~ i am so lonely~ i am nobody.. on my own... wa~~~~~... hehee...

So SiaNZzzzz.....

2005-07-16T12:13:00.000-07:00

hai... wat time le... mi so sian... nth to do then come in write write abit lor... jus got back home.. jus met wenlin go eat then pa billiard.. nua all the way... nth to do... no mood in doin everything... so f*** up... everything got mess up... my life has turn in a dark side which i cant c ani light shining into my direction... relationship is already a problem... i nv go liondance for a long time le.. after they force mi to go liondance competition... nv keep contact wif liondance ppl except some of them.. hai... so du lan.. told u all dun force mi le mah.. i hate to do wat i dun like.. knn.. i haf sch wrks to deal wif.. wat u all study... food... design... wat u all haf in sch to deal wif... design onli haf final year project every sem.. tat bloody hell ler.. knn... onli haf to go attachment n study about food... tmd.. wat i haf.. i haf to study for quiz for test do projec, study for project, wrk, study in sch.. nv think how busy am i except forcin mi to do wat u all wan... i am a human.. not someone hu can let u all swng here n there... i hate u all... i am not goin to join animore.. i quit.. i am partly a coach.. so wat if i am one.. i haf no time for all this monkey business... i haf no time for it not tat i dun wan to join for com.. cant u guys understand.. still sae wat hang up in the air ar.. wat rubbish is tat. i dun go for com then jus dun out mi into it la.. wat the big deal.. 10 year of pals of bro u sae... so wat if it's 10 year of relationship n u r fully make use of mi.. dun use tis n treaten mi.. i hate it. tis will onli make mi more du lan n haf more reason of not joinin it.. stop disturb my sch life. i wan to study... dun make mi dun treat u all even as a pals... liondance is onli a hobby.. it not something which when u master le can use tat for wrk... we r professional.. yes we r... but wat the first place we thot of join liondance.. it hobby n we haf pals in it.. not tat we join le n let u guys control... no wonder so mani ppl jealous n wans to make us all separate.. this time round is not ani one hu gif mi the courage to leave is U... u should noe hu u r... 10 year of palss... damn piss off... bcoz of ur words i decided to quit..

wRkIn wif A Swallon LeG...

2005-07-16T07:44:00.000-07:00

hai.. yesterdae nite went out wif adam, irvin, pearlyn, xiao ming, xiao di, yong gui and clarence.. as i do a stant on my bike which call superman an as i bring my leg down i forget my pillion stand was actually fold out.. i kick into my pillion stand n it was so pain until i stop my bike n hold onto my foot.. kao.. my leg went numb and the part started to swallon... damn pain... hai.. i cant simply walk properly as my leg was swallon... i am late for wrk as usual tis time is bcoz of my leg... i woke up early but i cant walk properly.. hai... so sian.. walk wif pain for the whole dae.. my friends saw le keep on askin mi to sit down n dun walk around.. intend to go home.. but need to wrk for my bike... coz i need money to buy my super4.. hai.. bo pian..

MoRnIN SuX...

2005-07-15T13:55:00.000-07:00

Hai... Today i woke up early in the mornin tryin to revise my quiz.. my alarm clock rang at around 8.30 am.. i try to get up as usual... i turn off my alarm n went back to bed as i thot of nuain~ another 15min more.. hai... But by the time when i wake up, it was already 11 plus le.. so suay.. nv go quiz.. go take a mc and the doctor suppect tat i kanna dengue fever... hai... all the anti biotic and medician which they gave mi was so much c le also scare ar.. cost mi around $15.. hai..